Post-Grad Blues

Now that Graduation from JMU is over, I literally can’t believe how quickly the past four years have gone by.  It all seems like a blur to me.  And now my brother is graduating from high school in a few weeks and will be starting his own college journey in the fall!  Talk about crazy! 

Graduation day felt so surreal.  Walking across the stage and hearing my name called felt like an out-of-body experience, it didn’t feel real to me.  After the graduation ceremony, my family and friend Brittany went to a winery just south of JMU for a celebration, which was great. 

But what am I doing now that I’ve graduated?   I don’t have a ‘big girl job,’ or a place of my own, so what next?  Well, I’m back working at Target, and Cy’s a local small Tux and Swim shop (yes, you heard me right) until I find a ‘real’ job.  And I’m back living at home, until I save up money for my own place.  I can just only hope that all of these things change soon – because I honestly have no idea how long I’ll last at home without going insane. 

Part of me feels like I’m sixteen again – I’m working at the same two jobs I did when I was in high school, and I’m back under my parents’ roof full time.  While I knew that with the bad economy this was a possibility for me, I had sincerely hoped that it wouldn’t happen to me.

As far as the future goes, I’m looking to move out on my own, as in a city or area far from home.  I want the opportunity to live far away for at least a little while, so that I can discover myself and push myself to grow.  While I don’t think my parents necessarily like this I have to do what is right for me in this case.  I just hope they understand that.

My hopes for the next few weeks?  To get some applications out there for jobs, and keep working at Target and Cy’s to earn some extra cash to put in my pocket/bank account for later.  I’m sure I’ll be busy enough that the time will go quickly, even though it’s not the most exciting life I could be living.  But, I have bright hopes for the future, and I’m going to keep working towards my dreams.